[ it's the barest hint of a chance at mutual understanding, and Elias is silent a moment as he considers it. Feeling like his warden does not have a firm grasp on the Powers and what their existence means for people like he and Jon has been infuriating. ]
I expect most people on board would not approve of my being allowed back into the library so soon, even under supervision. But I-- appreciate the offer.
Yes, well, you did thoroughly toss a molotov cocktail on a large portion of the good will that had started to build...
[ He breathes out. ]
I've a few books if it starts to... trouble you. I'll lend them to you from my own flat if necessary.
[ He doesn't know if Elias has to worry about the kind of weakness or sickness that he did. But he also doesn't think that making him feel that will help. And he's not sure if Eiffel knows that that's a thing. ]
He has in his head the notion that I simply need to 'become completely human again' and then I'll be removed from the influence of the Eye and be able to clearly see all my sins and flaws and-- whatever else he thinks I need to be aware of.
[ though he doesn't outwardly show it, the thought of such a thing makes him deeply afraid ]
[ He has a few ideas, of course, about how Elias might feel about this. And he has a particular letter from Robert Smirke he wants to make sure the man sees. ]
That... isn't quite how it works. I can see how he'd think so.
And yet, every reference he makes is accurate and appropriate. All of it saved up in his head and utilized like a second language. It's impressive, to some degree. If a touch ridiculous.
Of all the wonders this place holds, I hardly expected 'what if Reddit sat up and started running college radio' to be one of them and yet, here we are.
Everyone's a nuisance on the network. Half the posts on there are people showing their- their backsides off, thinking they're clever.
[ A soft huff. ]
He's not someone you can manipulate via sex, fear, or intimidation. And he seems dedicated to helping you despite your very rough attempt at dissuading him.
You're stuck with him, so you'd do better to look for the parts you can stand than focus on the ones you can't.
I haven't had him thrown overboard since coming out of zero, have I?
[ and elias is quite certain that the man can be manipulated, but he also knows there's no need for it. he just-- finds him and this entire situation totally frustrating. ]
And despite reading my file together, I don't think he's quite processed what-- who he's working with. We rather got stuck on the fact that this isn't my original body.
[ He stares at him for a moment before looking deeply deeply tired and rubbing at the bridge of his nose. ]
Elias, not killing someone is the bare minimum of interaction.
[ He looks up. ]
And I think I'd have found the whole thing more difficult if I hadn't seen it myself. Would it help to let him See the whole thing? Maybe... maybe give him some scope for it all? I can do that for you, if you'd like.
It's not as if other people haven't had their bodies restored. Would you really object to being back in your original body, a-a-at approximately this age, perhaps?
Not at all. I've long since adjusted to putting up with whatever body is most suitable at the time.
[ which is to say it isn't the body which is the issue. he simply has no desire to face the consequences of being in the same body for long enough that it dies ]
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[ He tilts his head as he glances over at Elias. ]
I'm still livid. But... he's one of the few on board who's never really... experienced, er... that. Them. Properly.
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I expect most people on board would not approve of my being allowed back into the library so soon, even under supervision. But I-- appreciate the offer.
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[ He breathes out. ]
I've a few books if it starts to... trouble you. I'll lend them to you from my own flat if necessary.
[ He doesn't know if Elias has to worry about the kind of weakness or sickness that he did. But he also doesn't think that making him feel that will help. And he's not sure if Eiffel knows that that's a thing. ]
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[ Again-- as seems to be happening so often here-- Elias is confronted by Jon's insistence on being a complete fool.
He's not sure he feels quite as contemptuous towards it as he has before. ]
Though if my warden has his way, I may not need them in the long-term either.
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What do you mean by that?
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[ though he doesn't outwardly show it, the thought of such a thing makes him deeply afraid ]
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[ He has a few ideas, of course, about how Elias might feel about this. And he has a particular letter from Robert Smirke he wants to make sure the man sees. ]
That... isn't quite how it works. I can see how he'd think so.
[ He glances over at Elias. ]
You don't help that image.
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I don't believe he's capable of understanding it.
[ jon, my warden is a moron ]
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He might be. There's worse options. ]
I'm not sure of that. He's got a better handle than most, and with very little experience.
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Of all the wonders this place holds, I hardly expected 'what if Reddit sat up and started running college radio' to be one of them and yet, here we are.
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Excuse me preferring my warden be a touch less ridiculous.
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[ A soft huff. ]
He's not someone you can manipulate via sex, fear, or intimidation. And he seems dedicated to helping you despite your very rough attempt at dissuading him.
You're stuck with him, so you'd do better to look for the parts you can stand than focus on the ones you can't.
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[ and elias is quite certain that the man can be manipulated, but he also knows there's no need for it. he just-- finds him and this entire situation totally frustrating. ]
And despite reading my file together, I don't think he's quite processed what-- who he's working with. We rather got stuck on the fact that this isn't my original body.
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Elias, not killing someone is the bare minimum of interaction.
[ He looks up. ]
And I think I'd have found the whole thing more difficult if I hadn't seen it myself. Would it help to let him See the whole thing? Maybe... maybe give him some scope for it all? I can do that for you, if you'd like.
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Oh, he quite understands the concept of body-snatching as I believe he put it. He's just rather stuck there.
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And the original Bouchard isn't exactly home anymore. At least, I assume no?
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[ it's never occurred to him to check. ]
Not that it matters. I suspect I shan't be allowed to graduate if my intention is simply to continue on as I have been.
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[ He turns his hand. ]
It's not as if other people haven't had their bodies restored. Would you really object to being back in your original body, a-a-at approximately this age, perhaps?
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[ which is to say it isn't the body which is the issue. he simply has no desire to face the consequences of being in the same body for long enough that it dies ]
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Face the rest of that question when you get to it.
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I'll keep it in mind as an option.
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