[ martin makes a dismissive sort of sound, a tch, like he's implying the wardens' circumstances may just be their own fault. he's a 1%'er now - he fully believes they can just pull themselves up by the bloody bootstraps if they really care enough to. ]
They're trying to marry me off. And she's - lovely, I'm sure, but-
[ god, if it's not boring. ]
I just wanted to ask how you- how you find things, I guess. If you have regrets.
[ Elias runs a hand over his chin, thoughtful. There are advantages to having one's history only vaguely known, it certainly helps with reputation building. But-- ]
Do I regret losing all my family at a young age, coming into my inheritance years before I was ready? ... I can't say I've ever thought about it.
[ There's a look in his eyes that all but dares Martin to challenge him on that, it's such an obvious evasion of the question. ]
The real question is, Mr. Blackwood, will you have regrets? It's a very different life out here. None of the comforts you're used to. None of the privilege. The only ones who'll look twice at you are those who want to use you for their own ends.
[ alright, well, he winces a little at that, because it's true - he doesn't know much about elias, not really, and the look in his eyes is enough to stopper any objection. martin might be slightly inexperienced here, but he's fully aware that the ceaseless is elias's turf, not his own. ]
Well... fine. I'm a bit sick of people looking at me, anyway. [ and there's sincerity in the way he speaks. ] It's - I can't keep doing what I'm doing. And if I wait much longer, I don't know that I'll ever be able to get out at all. I don't want to spend the rest of my life comfortable but miserable.
[ martin's eyes track him, curious. he's craning his neck just slightly, as if he might get a glimpse, but he's not actively peering over his shoulder. ]
I've got- well, a friend of the family, she's the quartermaster of another, um, enterprise. Was thinking about seeing if I could buy my way on, really. [ it's a little embarrassing, but he doesn't care. ] I should have access to coin enough to make my inexperience palatable while I find my way.
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They're trying to marry me off. And she's - lovely, I'm sure, but-
[ god, if it's not boring. ]
I just wanted to ask how you- how you find things, I guess. If you have regrets.
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Do I regret losing all my family at a young age, coming into my inheritance years before I was ready? ... I can't say I've ever thought about it.
[ There's a look in his eyes that all but dares Martin to challenge him on that, it's such an obvious evasion of the question. ]
The real question is, Mr. Blackwood, will you have regrets? It's a very different life out here. None of the comforts you're used to. None of the privilege. The only ones who'll look twice at you are those who want to use you for their own ends.
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Well... fine. I'm a bit sick of people looking at me, anyway. [ and there's sincerity in the way he speaks. ] It's - I can't keep doing what I'm doing. And if I wait much longer, I don't know that I'll ever be able to get out at all. I don't want to spend the rest of my life comfortable but miserable.
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There's misery waiting for you out here that you can't yet imagine, but it's nothing that can't be endured.
[ He gets up from the desk and opens a cabinet against the wall, starting to look through the papers and boxes for something. ]
Any more thoughts on how you'll get out? And what it is you think you'll do once it's done?
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I've got- well, a friend of the family, she's the quartermaster of another, um, enterprise. Was thinking about seeing if I could buy my way on, really. [ it's a little embarrassing, but he doesn't care. ] I should have access to coin enough to make my inexperience palatable while I find my way.